So I am single guys… not that that was a real shocker or anything. I know, I am only 22 but growing up I thought I would be married by now! haha Mexican problems!
Anyway, ever since I was a little girl I remember my parents praying for my future spouse and that He would be a God- fearing person. I always knew it was important but I didn’t know how life altering it could be if he wasn’t. So It wasn’t until a few years ago that I started praying that my future spouse would love God with all their heart as well.
If you followed me from the start you know that I was in a very serious relationship a few years ago. I relationship that I thought would eventually lead to marriage.This guy was my best friend and I really loved this person very much but because I was younger I started to make that person the reason for my happiness. Although I cherish my moments with him I honestly sacrificed my relationship with God because I loved him so much and wanted to make him happy. I later realized that issues we had emerged because we didn’t have a strong relationship with Christ. I know it hurt God to see me go down a path I wasn’t suppose to be on. However, I know God allowed this person to be in my life for a reason that was very evident in that season of my life. So after almost two years, we broke up and although it was devastating I knew that I was the only one to blame for my heartbreak. From the beginning our relationship was pretty much destined to fail because it never started as a Godly relationship.
Now honestly, I wouldn’t trade the moments I had with him for anything in the world. I do cherish our time together because it helped me learn, grow and realize some very important things.
I realized that no matter how amazing a person was, if God wasn’t the center of their life I would eventually become miserable. Religion has always been a huge part of my life, all my family members are either pastors, worship singers, missionaries, and anything you could think of involving the church. I could not imagine my life without my faith and God. In my past relationship, I was always trying to bring God in the mix and it would just feel like I was pushing religion on to someone. I knew I never wanted to feel that way again, I want to be with someone that is just as passionate about Christ as I am and that can understand where I am coming from. It’s definitely hard when you want someone to see how awesome God is but unfortunately you can’t make people see how great God is in your life unless they have their own intimate relationship with Him.
Honestly I’m far from perfect, I am not the most spiritual person ever or anything either. I just know that I love God and I want to please him in everything I do. Now the question arises, how can we find that person were supposed to be with? The answer is, we can’t find them. You can’t go and search for the ‘the one’, the truth is you probably will never find him/her. What we need to do is find God, we need to have such a strong relationship with God that when He does choose to bless us with that person we are able to be Godly companion and example to them.
I’m basically writing this post to remind myself of this. No matter how much you know something is true, we are humans and we give in to our flesh most of the time. So yes, as much as I try to spend time with God sometimes I honestly fail, I kind just skim through a book, pray as I’m almost falling asleep, and not really giving God the time He deserves. I was at a Church Bible Study a few weeks ago where this girl said that her married friend said she envied single people because we had all the time in the world to spend time with God. I gasped inside and was so shocked at how true that statement was yet I had never thought about it in that way. I mean it really is just us! We don’t have a spouse, children, our huge responsibilities.. its just us and our own schedule. So why wouldn’t we take a good chunk of our time to find God and really listen to His plans for our lives.
I really don’t think God will bless us with that person were supposed to be with until we are prepared enough to lead another life along with ours. Yes, its a daily struggle. Its a fight that we obviously have to win everyday but it will be so worth it in the end.
I mean I can’t lead a family if I have no clue as to where I should lead them or how. I got so scared thinking about this the other day because obviously I want children some day, and I will be responsible for leading them down the right path. I could never do that on my own and for that reason, I have to prepare myself at this moment in time when I have all the time in the world so that one day I can stand before God and be proud of the way I raised my children. I also need to prepare myself so I can be the best girlfriend when that time comes. I mean I thought I was an amazing girlfriend my first time around but I guess not!! LOL My ex told me he pretty much felt like I treated him like if it wasn’t my way then it was trash. That I was very prideful and refused to apologize first.
Which is so true, I was the most cold-hearted person ever lol I could go days without speaking to him and I would be fine because in my heart I really thought I was in the right. Anyway, I have grown so much since then and God has worked in me!
But seriously, the conclusion to this drawn out post is that
When you put God first you really get so blessed and honestly I am trying to stay blessed for the rest of my life! Lol Not that that is the only reason I choose to follow God. I have seen His hand and love in my life time and time again, and I could never thank Him enough. So my only wish is to form a family that honors Him everyday of our lives. The only way to get there is by preparing myself now. So instead of complaining about being single, ask yourself. Im I spiritually mature enough to lead another life along with mine and also one day children? If the answer is no, you are fine! Just remember to find God first and He will make sure to FIND YOU the one.